It’s Not Too Late to Turn Back

As I think back on a crazy, painful time in my life I realize:

God tried to show me. God tried to tell me. But I was so caught up in what I wanted and in what I was pursuing, that I had gotten a little too far away from him to even see, hear, or understand most of what he was exposing. And even if I did peep game here and there, I foolishly ignored it. 

But when the heat from the fire started getting hotter and it felt like walls were starting to close in on me, just like so many others do when they feel troubled, I turned to the one I knew without a doubt could help me. 

Feeling so uneasy and confused, I started asking God for 1) revelation 2) strength to handle whatever was to be revealed and 3) guidance on how to move accordingly.

Despite me putting other things and people before Him, despite me not paying attention and not listening, and despite my pridefulness, God eventually answered me. 

Most importantly (& unbeknownst to me at the time) God saved me! Perhaps, it’s what He had been trying to do for quite some time. But it wasn’t until I turned away from myself and towards Him that He wrecked my plans before they could completely wreck me. 

Though it was such a painful rescue, the pain is just something I could never be mad at God for. Because quite honestly, I was partially to blame. 

To me, this was an act of love, grace, and mercy. But take what you will from it.

May this part of my truth serve as a reminder that regardless of how far you travel away from God, you can always turn back.